Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Let Me Hold You Longer

This is the poem in whole that I used in my header.

We received a signed copy of this book from Cindy when Michael was little.

Enjoy!


Let Me Hold You Longer

By Karen Kingsbury


Long ago you came to me,
a miracle of firsts,
First smiles and teeth and baby steps,
a sunbeam on the burst.

But one day you will move away
and leave to me your past
And I will be left thinking of
a lifetime of your lasts…

The last time that I held a bottle
to your baby lips
The last time that I lifted you
and held you on my hip.

The last night when you woke up crying,
needing to be walked,
When last you crawled up with your blanket,
wanting to be rocked.

The last time when you ran to me,
still small enough to hold.
The last time that you said you’d marry
me when you grew old.

Precious, simple moments and
bright flashes from your past-
Would I have held on longer if
I’d known they were your last?

Our last adventure to the park,
your final midday nap,
The last time when you wore your favorite
faded baseball cap.

Your last few hours of kindergarten,
those last few days of first grade,
Your last at bat in Little League,
last colored picture made.

I never said good-bye to all
your yesterdays long passed.
So what about tomorrow-
will I recognize your lasts?

The last time that you catch a frog
in that old backyard pond.
The last time that you run barefoot
across our fresh-cut lawn.

Silly, scattered images
will represent your past.
I keep on taking pictures,
never quite sure of your lasts…

The last time that I comb your hair
or stop a pillow fight.
The last time that I pray with you
and tuck you in at night.

The last time when we cuddle
with a book, just me and you
The last time you jump in our bed
and sleep between us two.

The last piano lesson,
last vacation to the lake.
Your last few weeks of middle school,
last soccer goal you make.

I look ahead and dream of days
that haven’t come to pass.
But as I do, I sometimes miss
today’s sweet, precious lasts…

The last time that I help you with
a math or spelling test.
The last time when I shout that yes,
your room is still a mess.

The last time that you need me for
a ride from here to there.
The last time that you spend the night
with your old tattered bear.

My life keeps moving faster,
stealing precious days that pass,
I want to hold on longer-
want to recognize your lasts…

The last time that you need my help
with details of a dance.
The last time that you ask me for
advice about romance.

The last time that you talk to me
about your hopes and dreams.
The last time that you wear a jersey
for your high school team.

I’ve watched you grow and barely noticed
seasons as they pass.
If I could freeze the hands of time,
I’d hold on to your lasts.

For come some bright fall morning,
you’ll be going far away.
College life will beckon
in a brilliant sort of way.

One last hug, one last good-bye,
one quick and hurried kiss.
One last time to understand
just how much you’ll be missed.

I’ll watch you leave and think how fast
our time together passed.
Let me hold on longer, God,
to every precious last.

Monday, May 24, 2010

Happy Birthday Peyton

Three years ago today I was exactly 41 weeks pregnant.
Ask my midwife and she will tell you that I am a 41 weeker and will probably never
naturally go into labor at 40 weeks or earlier.
Three years ago, I woke up at 1 a.m. to contractions that were 10-15 min apart.
I decided to be nice and let Brian and the midwife sleep.
At 6 am they were pretty regular 10 min so I decided to wake everyone up and call
the midwife. She was on her way.
We called Grandma Cindy to come and get Michael and Casey.
The contractions came and went.
I was 8 cm when the midwife came at a little after 6.
Problem is that Peyton wouldn't drop.
I was in labor for 16 hrs. My longest one.
With just a few pushes this little man flew into the world.
Scared us at first because he didn't let a cry but he had a good grip and we knew he would be okay.
Michael and Casey came over that night to see us and went with Grandma to get dinner for everyone. Mama was craving chinese food from Haggen's. It was delicious.

Peyton James weighed in at 9lbs 11.5oz 22.5 in long



Peyton's 1st birthday party


Peyton's 2nd birthday

Peyton at 3 (well a month before turning 3)

Peyton you are a whirlwind of energy.
Lover of food, always in the kitchen sneaking bananas.
Wonderful BIG brother
You are a big boy and are using the potty now.
You HATE diapers, they are for babies
You love Little Einsteins.

We love you Wingnut
(or Hoover as daddy has started calling you lately)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEYTON!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Love this Picture

Hair standing on end because it had been in a pony tail the last two days

Getting ready to crawl and take on the world.

Just look at that smirk....showing her two itty bitty teeth.

I LOVE that little girl!

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Due for a post

What we have been up to~

enjoying the beautiful weather

playing outside

boys have been shrimping

I have been separating their heads from their bodies (the shrimps, not the boys)

I have been seriously considering homeschooling

Looking at taking the course at Whatcom this september

While I enjoy my breaks from having all the kids home, I would really enjoy the flexibility with the schedule that comes from homeschooling.

Michael spends about 2 hrs on the bus each day he goes to school

Brian only works a 4 day week and this would give us more time to do fun things (instead of feeling guilty for keeping Michael home from school so we could go to the zoo)

Anywhoo~

Grace has been trying to pull herself up to stand.

She is still crawling backwards and not forward yet.

I believe she is going through a growth spurt as her sleeping habits stink right now.

I am looking forward to being in a room that Grace doesn't sleep in, that way we can at least try the cry it out technique!

Friday, May 7, 2010

1st Bonfire of the year

Brian had some brush to burn and the boys insisted on roasting marshmallows.
I had a picture of Casey but it got lost in the shuffle.


We kept telling Peyton to put it closer to the flame so it would roast....

But I don't want it to catch fire....is what he would say

He is going to be my child that will have the perfect golden brown ones!

He loves his Baby Grace

and Baby Grace loves pulling his hair

Daddy pushing Peyton on the tractor that I got for free when we lived in town

What a great little brother

Peyton asks the boys if he can push them around the yard.
He is such a thoughtful young man.

Just in case you didn't see, I had two posts that I put up this evening so be sure to scroll on down!

Meet Grace's New Friend

Brian went out shrimping today and yesterday and last Saturday!
For some reason they (Dept of Fish and Wildlife) only have shrimping open for
SEVEN days this year!
Yesterday they limited out for 4 people!
Think 320 shrimp.
They even threw back about 25.
Today, they limited out for 4 people in one pull of each of his pots (4 total)
Another 320 shrimp (we got 2 limits and they people that went with got 2).
But....today....they threw back over 350 shrimp.
They had 350 shrimp in the last pot they pulled up!

AMAZING!

Grace liked the shrimp. This guy was still kind of squirming and she wanted to touch him.

"What Mom, I was just trying to get to know him better!"
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Thursday, May 6, 2010